Sunday 13 February 2011

Here without You.....



Here without you, but i can't stop thinking about you;
Here without you, loneliness is all i feel.
Here without you, i am no longer cute;
Here without you, i do not have any will....

Here without you, everything seem like pale;
Here without you, is like Espresso without sugar and milk.
Here without you, i yell but no body knew;
Here without you, i can't take any bad news.

Here without you, i sat by the window sill;
thinking of you, sadness is all i feel.
look at the mountain view, didn't make any better, still...
i think i am so ill, i gotta forget you...

Here without you, i lay down on the field;
i heard the church bell, i saw a cloud that look like you.
Here without you, like living in a jail,
a jail that can't be bail, the jail that is so huge...

Here without you, my heart bleeding and flow to the rill;
Here without you, i still miss your hair black and silk,
i miss it's smell, i miss the day i stood behind you.
i think i still miss you, it won't stop until one day i got kill....



Wednesday 9 February 2011

f**k valentine day....

valentine day just in a corner, i still don't have a partner;
maybe i am not a perfect lover, i deserve to be a loner....
i brought myself a rose flower, put at my desk table;
looking at the red color, i thinking of her....

I sat on the park today, it was a raining day;
i saw people walk in pair, but i just let the rain hit my face....
the rain didn't do its job, i still drunk of love;
the rain fall on my nose, people don't know i am sob....

after a wild raining, strong wind start blowing;
blew away the water on my jean, blew away my crazy thinking....
the sky turning dark, the dogs start to bark;
everything start falling apart, is time for me to stand up....

time was running late, time for me to go back;
i light up a cigarette, though i still feel sad....
on the way back was a bit cold, i pulled my hood a bit low;
like a man without soul, walking to the massive black hole....

i sit in my small room, thinking what the hell i had going through;
like storm coming soon, and i waiting for the doom......
i put on my new headphone, listen to my favorite song;
my way back is still long, i got to be strong...
turn the volume to the max, rock my brain until it crack;
forget everything i have said; forget everyone i have met....

14th is valentine day, i hope you guys have a lovely day,
i wish everyone can find their pair, i hope you guys happy everyday...



Wednesday 2 February 2011

Happy CNY....

Chinese new year jz around the corner, been two years i don't have a family reunion dinner;
this is a great traditional, missing anyone won't make any better...
i miss my mum tom yum steam pot, i miss the big king prawns;
i miss my dad sense of humour, i realise i miss a lot...

kid is all i remembered, we sat around the table;
the tom yum make us drink a lot of fizzy water, though we heard a lot of laughter,
no doubt, my mum she is a good server, i hope i can serve her back in the future...

Chinese new year is coming, normally i got some pocket money,
all i got to say is Gong Xi, but this year, not me....
is not the money i care, is just the feeling i want to say;
the feeling about i celebrate in other place, or should i say , i don't even celebrate....

Another thing i missing, is the friends gathering;
we talked about what we been doing, we talked about everything.
i guess all my friends must be enjoyed their holiday, watching the great firework at the fair;
in this magnificent day, i just want to say: hey guys, have a good day!!

The year coming is the rabbit's year, i hope everyone have no fear;
for those study, have a good result in this year;
for those working, hope u can successful in this year...
the time is running fast, i just want to say : best of luck!!


oh...one more thing, for people who driving, please, do not drink.....
think about you family, think about me, please, drive safety....


Thursday 27 January 2011

Oversea...the life i meant to be...

I am a young guy who go oversea, here is my little story;
this isn't about the money, this is the life i meant to be.
"why you go oversea", please don't ask me;
i don't even know what i think, like i said 'the life i meant to be'...

Remember when i first came to UK, my life wasn't ok;
i was treating unfair, because racists are everywhere.
its horrible when u heard what they say, they thought that we never care,
i just want to say hey, its not a war i want to declare," why you being so offence??"

I change five jobs in two months, i can tell you all of this wasn't fun;
though i won't run, what i can do was keep hunt.
i dragged my heavy luggage with patient, i went through every train station;
that was hell lots of tensions, but i know i got to be patient, be determination.

Soon, i found a job in a small town, everything seem start to settle down;
still i work hard like a cow, it really as hard as it's sound.
6 days a week, no matter you ill or you sick;
i know i am not weak, is just i get tired a little bit.

Still remember my first winter, was cold like a freezer;
in the night its get colder, you cant sleep without a heater.
when the air temperature go low, the sky full of lovely snow;
watching the snow fall on my nose, the joyful feeling is you never know.

Although my life is a bit tough, but the snow is always cheer me up;
i hope i can go back to the past, capture every snow moments until its last.
Working here for nearly two years, sometime i got a bit fears,
sometime i got a bit cheer, i am glad what i have experienced.

I am a young guy who go oversea, i can tell you is not easy;
but my life clock is still ticking, i just wish i can live here with happy and no worry,
God bless me.....

Wednesday 19 January 2011

The ten fuck you...


time is running a bit late, still, i am very upset;
my head feel like start to crack, give me a break, for fuck sake...
this is the ten fuck you, doesn't matter what you feel;
my heart is no longer seal, until one day i got kill..

Fuck you number one, my life isn't fun, this is not the life i want.

Fuck you number two, i am not your tool, i am not a fool.

Fuck you number three, discriminate is all i see, i just want to break free.

Fuck you number four, you laugh when i fall, i don't care at all.

Fuck you number five, i am not doing fine, i want to get high.

Fuck you number six, i feel so damn sick, your ass is I going to kick.

Fuck you number seven, moral i have forgotten, i might not go to heaven.

Fuck you number eight, whatever criticism i will take, what i did i won't fake.

Fuck you number nine, i know this is a bit out of line, please give me some more time.

Fuck you number ten, i am not Zen, at least i won't pretend.

i apologize for being rude, i know this is no good;
i want to be nice if i could, i just a miserable dude.
when u see these all, u will think this is not the person i know;
you were wrong, i just back to normal...


i didn't go to church, it doesn't mean i always curse;
i don't want to be a jerk, i swear this is just the first.....


Sunday 16 January 2011

Really...96

I was born on 9th of june, it as beautiful as the moon;
i wasn't born on noon, it happen in small delivery room.
if my mum didn't pregnancy, she still can wear bikini;
here i tell you a little story, what i gonna say is a reality.

Back to nineteen-eighty eight, my mum was quite suffocate;
she hope she can jump on jet, run away from all of that.
though she still doing fine, is just the matter of time;
my mum is very kind, she said having me like having the sunshine.

she still remember that day, the doctor is a malay, my mum was quite scared;
she didn't know what the doctor say, she worry something might happen to her little Beh.
things turn out is a good news, is just i got an extra little finger nail;
she doesn't care how people feel, she think i am really cute.

soon i get older, peoples start talking about my finger,
they think i am a monster, they don't care if i get anger.
this isn't my fault, is just the gift from God,
i just as normal as you pal, i hope i can say it loud.
they say i am imperfect, i am really upset;
my mum console me when i sad, she said i am imperfectly perfect.

now i am an adult, i don't mind the assault;
i want to show it out, i don't care the result.
i am happy when my mum encourage me, i am glad i born at this family,
laughing is all u can see, i think they have set me free.

this is just a funny story, it depend on the way you see;
i just want to bring some glee, oh please, do love me.


9th of june is my birthday, is been long time i haven't celebrate;
if i say i deserve a kiss for that day, i think it is quite fair.

Friday 14 January 2011

A letter will never be sent...

i want to write you a letter, i think it does matter;
i hope i am a writer, so i can do it better.

i ain't Romeo in the poetry, but i can always make you happy;
i want sail with you on the sea, i want you to feel free.
i want to buy a boat, we sail away from the coast;
i dont care how much it cost, i just know our life is short.

what on my mind, i wont tell a lie;
i just hope i can fly, cause i want paint my love on the sky.
i know i'm a bit shy, though i struggle, i fight;
i wish every saturday night, we can sit side by side...

i saw you on facebook the other day, you look prettier everyday;
i saw a lot of your photo there, i cant keep my eyes away.
they say you a bit fat, i can tell you i like that;
you dont need to feel sad, i have still got your back.

i knew you got a boyfriend now, a lost heart will never be found;
what goes around come around, it not easy as it sound.
though i still hope you happy, a broken heart you will never see;
i dont need you sympathy, i wont sad if you get marry.

i want to hold your hand, together we built castle with the sand;
this is a letter will never be sent, thus, the story is not yet end......

(ps: this is not a copy paste, is just my thinking in my head)